New Year's Eve

"Austere perserverance,
Harsh and continuous,
May be employed by the smallest of us,
And rarely fails its purpose,
For its silent power grows irresistibly,
Greater with time."

Goethe

I read those powerful words on a tombstone in the Gembrook cemetery on my morning walk today and was moved to memorized them. My walk was my New Year's Eve celebration. Indeed every day my early walk celebrates being alive and able to breathe deeply and enjoy the birds, the trees, the scenery, knowing that I share all of it with many wonderful people. I want to tell you more of this morning's walk but first I want to tell you about yesterday. I thought about bees for most of the day.

I'd been hanging out for Saturday, a 'free day'. I did my walk, took Lib breakfast in bed (tropical juice, muesli with fruit, grilled cheese on toast and peppermint tea-I know people joke that blogging lets everyone know what you had for breakfast, but I don't mind, I tell only what I want to and what I think is worth telling, and breakfast is important to me, so is lunch and dinner, if you think about it, our whole lives revolve around eating and food gathering and preparation, every day).
I had my arborist friend Steve Major booked to advise and quote me on a bit of tree work, and he arrived 10 minutes before the appointed time of 9.15am. We had to walk past the bees. I'd been wondering if the messmate flow was 'on', and it was obvious as we walked within ten feet of the first hive that it was, the smell of fresh nectar sweet in the nostrils. Bee flight was heavy and Steve remarked, "Gee they're goers, aren't they?"
"They are Steve", I replied, "they aren't called 'workers' for nothing. From the first light of dawn, till the dark of night, the foragers have one mission, the search for flowers and to fill the needs of the hive. The only thing that stops them is bad weather, or a dearth of nectar and pollen. They wouldn't have gathered much in that cold wet weather over Christmas so they're really belting now."
After Steve left I thought I needed a rest and didn't feel up to anything physical so I stayed inside and caught up on the farm bookeeping entries on the computer. After lunch I picked up a little so I lit the smoker and checked the hives. The two frames of foundation that I'd put on one of the big hives in a box with the last six sticky combs I had, eight days ago, some hours before the weather changed, were drawn out and had quite a bit of unsealed honey in them. All four hives in the back yard were filling nicely but much of the honey was unsealed, which was a relief, because it meant there was no need to take the honey off yet, and I felt like a rest from that. The bees showed some aggression, I copped a few stings. Messmate is notorius for this, they become a bit niggly, and worse later in the flow. Red stringybark too. And when bees are working a red gum flow, for some reason, the sting hurts twice as much. Maybe something to do with high protein levels in the pollen.
Around 3.00pm I went to Fay Day's house to do a bit of blackberry poisoning (cutting the stem and painting the cut with roundup in a dabber bottle). I thought this would be light duties as I'd done a lot of spraying and hard work there last summer and now there were only a few surviving renegades. After killing them I looked at the rampant jasmine that had taken over the garden at the back of Fay's house. I'd told her I'd have a go at it while she was in Tassy and thought, well, I might as well make a start. I found my strength and tore into it.
I was still thinking bees. They are amazing creatures. It makes no difference to them that Saddam Hussein was hanged, or if as john Howard says, he had a fair trial, or if it's Christmas or New Year. This time of year a bee only lives about 6 weeks, if that. The first few weeks is spent largely in the hive, on cleaning cells, nursing brood, and other housekeeping like fanning to evaporate moisture from nectar, wax building, guard duty etc. They take orientation and joy flights during this time and the duties they perform within the hive correlates with their physiological condition, eg. they are nurse bees when the hypopharangeal glands are at their peak to produce royal jelly, wax builders when their wax producing glands are at their best. Then they become foragers and literally work till their wings are worn out, eventually not able to get back home with their load, dying in service in the field.
I worked cutting and pulling jasmine till 6.30pm, inspired but the humble honeybee. and was pleased with my efforts, knowing also that Fay would be happy to see it when she got back. It'll need follow up but most of it is gone, piled up at the back where I'll burn it when the restrictions are lifted.

Now for this morning. On my walk I felt enormous satisfaction. It marks twelve full months of doing morning walks, having started on New Years Day. I've missed about twelve times only. Say 350 days by 4km, that makes 1400km that little 'Snow' and I have walked, or perhaps about the distance from Melbourne to Byron Bay in northern NSW. I've shown great discipline too, staying away from the bakery when so many times I've felt like stopping. Today, as a reward, I bought a curried meat pie. I confess, I have a weakness for curry pies. I've decided that every month next year, on the last Sunday of the month, I will indulge myself with a meat pie of some sort or a pasty at the bakery.
I've decided also to keep walking every day in 2007 and wear my Greek cap. Marg and Phil, who this year went to the Greek Isles, gave me an 'authentic Greek fisherman's cap'-it says so on the inside- for Christmas, and I've been told it suits me. Today I bumped into Norm Smith on my walk. He told me he'd been to the Greek Islands and visited Crete where his father was captured by the Germans. His father went to the war when Norm was seven years old and died in Germany as a POW. He was in the 2/8th battalion. My late friend Doug Twaits was in the 2/7th and was also captured on Crete. He too was sent to Germany but survived the war and died in 2001 in a car accident, aged 85. Doug developed an interest in bees in Stalag 83, learning the rudiments from a Scottish sergeant and it's because of Doug that I got back into bees. A story for another day.
Lib said when looking at Marg and Phil's photos that she wants to go there. I can feel it in my bones that we will. I don't know when, but I've set it as a reward some day, a little bigger and more expensive than a monthly meat pie. I'm not interested in travel to many places. But Greece? Yes, I think yes.

Three Chords on Boxing Day.

"All this happened without me noticing it. Like life, big changes can take place in a garden utterly unnoticed until almost too late."
Those words struck a chord with me when I read them on Boxing Day in the book I'm currently reading,'The Waterlily' by Kate Llewellyn. There's truth there. At the farm, especially in out of the way places like the steep bottom paddock and fencelines. Weeds such as blackberries and ivy silently take hold and spread unseen through the cover of shrubs and grass, sending out rooting tentacles like evil claws. Then suddenly in mid summer, when you have a little more time, you find them defiantly claiming their patch and daring you to try win it back. If you give in they win, and in no time will take everything.
The words struck the second chord on Boxing day in the afternoon when I walked with Lib's sister Margaret and Robbie. We went the other way to my morning walk, north and away from the town, down Bond's lane and past the Gemview Estate that was subdivided from the protea farm a couple of years ago. There were 8 one acre blocks sold off. I'd known there was building going on there, I'd heard the excavators and the nail guns and the cement trucks groaning out their concrete, and seen the teams of tradies and delivery trucks heavily laden with building supplies driving slowly searching for the sites early in the morning down Launching Place Rd.
Despite knowing it was happening, I got a hell of a fright when I saw it. Huge McMansions of modern design, built in sandstone or fancy brick, sitting ostentatiously where potatoes then proteas once grew. A couple of them are so big I reckon four of our house would fit inside, and are complete with concrete driveways and garages bigger than many of the cottages of old Gembrook. It's a groteque scene to me. Suburban Narre Warren North mansions at my back door, and they continue all the way along Lauching Place Rd. to the Pack Track, on land which again was a potato farm subdivided a little earlier. The Pack Track was so named because more than one hundred years ago the trader used to take supplies by pack horse from 'Silverwells' to prospectors in the bush.
The third chord came in the evening on Boxing Day. A neighbour rang and said his brother in law had a ticket for the cricket the next day but couldn't go for some reason. It was a $40 ticket, but despite it being sold out I could have the ticket for only $50 if I wanted it. I thought at first he was offering the ticket for nothing to me or Gordon, a cricket fan, then I thought he was asking $10, until he made it plain they wanted $50, ten dollars above what the ticket cost. Things have changed, once if you couldn't use a ticket at the last minute you'd give to a friend or neighbour. We declined the ticket. Shane Warne may have taken 700 Test wickets and this is his last Melbourne Test Match, he having announced his retirement to take affect after the Sydney Test, but going to the cricket holds no interest for me now they're all multi millionaires. They are no longer sportsmen, it's no longer sport. They are rich men, celebrities, and entertainers. I'd just as soon watch the Upper Pakenham Yabbies.

Merry Christmas

As you would expect in this toppsyturvy year we're having, Christmas morning is cold and wet. I just checked the rain gauge, 20ml overnight which follows 16ml two nights ago. Shrubs are drooping with the weight of water, so different to last week when the garden was parched, wilted and dusty.
The rain is a godsend for people in the fire districts. Most of the fire fighters have gone home for rest and Christmas day with their families. It's still raining, I've delayed my walk and may postpone it. Lib, me and the boys plan to visit Lyle in hospital this morning then have lunch at the farm with Elvie, Meredith and Roger, and Joddy. Then we'll come home and prepare the potatoes, pumpkin, parsnip, sweet potatoes and carrots which we'll cook in the outside barbie oven with two small pork cuts, and peas and beans on the inside stove. Lib cooked the turkey and made the gravy yesterday evening. Lib's sister Margaret and husband Phil, her mum Molly and the three girls are expected mid afternoon. Marg's bringing entree ( a seafood banquet that has become a tradition), the puddy and nibbles, and Molly pays for the ham which awaits in the shed fridge. A team effort as always.
While house and fridge cleaning yesterday (Lib filled in for someone at work), I put a new heavy grate in the fireplace, cut some kindling and carted wood to the door with the forecast for today a cold 15C maximum. It will be nice sitting by the open fire tonight. Who would have thought it possible earlier, with fires ravaging the bush, prowling like an angry monster from hell? They say 870,000 hectares have gone up so far and with thick smoke stinging eyes and nostrils for days on end, lighting the fire at Christmas would have seemed ridiculous.

Gordon turns 21 today. How well I remember the day he was born. The labour pains started while we were opening presents with Lib's mum and dad at about 11.00am. Lib and I headed off to the hospital in my HQ ute. Marg and Phil and the 3 girls, then little, arrived just as we were leaving. I came home late in the afternoon and put Handel's Messiah on the stereo. As "For unto us a child is given" played loudly I flew higher than ever I have. Fatherhood, first time. A fantastic feeling. This Christmas will be special.

Merry Christmas to my friends who read this blogpost. May God be with you, wherever you are.

Christmas Nerves

Elvie and Meredith are shaky about Christmas. They visited Lyle in hospital on the weekend, separately, Elvie first. Roger took her down. She said she found him a bit strange. When I asked what she meant she said he said he was coming home tomorrow, when it was obvious this wasn't the case, and that it was difficult to have a meaningful conversation with him. He'd had the operation to remove blood from his brain only a day earlier so it may take a while to recover, we concluded.
Meredith went down on Sunday evening. She said he looked terrible. His head was shaved with a big bandage on one side, bloody, there was also blood on the bed, and the whole scene was too much for her. She nearly freaked out and couldn't wait to leave. It was a bit like visiting R.P McMurphy late in the film were her words, adding that she did not mean that badly, she was just trying to give me the picture.
When Elvie rang through Foxy's order yesterday, I asked had she heard any more on Lyle. She said yes, he'd been on the phone saying he wanted to come home for Christmas day, even if he had to go back to the hospital afterwards, and that he wanted his teeth fixed by Christmas. I asked what's wrong with his teeth and she said they keep falling out of his mouth and onto the floor. She said his gums must have shrunk, she had rung around everywhere and it'll take months to get new/altered teeth.
"What do we do then."
"I don't know, and I don't think I can handle looking after him on Christmas day either." She added that he'll be back in the specialist geriatric ward soon and we'll be guided by the staff.
Christmas lunch was to be at the farm, just light and simple. Lib is probably filling in at work on the early shift and her family's coming to our house for the evening meal, including her mum who has to be lifted up and down our steps which is a worry as her bones are like chalk. I offered to pick up Lyle from the hospital and take him back if necessary but only if he's well enough. I don't know how this one will end up. All we want really, all of us, is a rest.

Faith

We need to have faith. Faith in other people, faith in God, faith in the justice system, faith in the police force, faith in the health system, faith that it will rain again. Faith that it will be alright.
This was the day of Gord's court case. When I rang the solicitor late yesterday he said he was sorry but he would have to ask for an adjournment. The informant, the policeman who had charged Gordon with trespass with intent to steal, and who had in so doing given my faith in the police force a big jolt, had been on holidays, and it was impossible for the solicitor to negotiate with the police prosecutor while the he was not available.
The solicitor said we didn't have to go to court, he would fax through the application for adjournment in the morning and we would be advised in due course the new date in January or February. I have no option but to put my faith in the solicitor, and assume the 'You must attend the court' instruction on the summons does not apply if a solicitor is seeking adjournment. Either way, at 10.00am, when we were suppossed to be at the Dandenong Magistrate's court, Gordon was fast asleep and I was climbing in the avocado tree picking fruit that I hoped would ripen by Christmas day.
We have to have faith in others. We wouldn't drive cars if we didn't hold faith that the car coming the other way was not being driven by a homicidal/suicidal maniac with intention to wipe us out. Nor would we if we did not hold faith that we were not going to blackout and drive into a tree or oncoming truck. When you get on a plane you have faith the pilot is competent and healthy and that the plane has been well maintained. It's that basic. The more faith you have in more things around you, the less worries and anxiety you feel.
The solicitor said to me on the phone, "Tell Gordon not to worry, he's in good hands, between me, you, and the doctors' letters." He refers to the psychologists as doctors, and we have letters from Gordon's original diagnosing psychologist and the Emerald Secondary College psychologist who knew Gordon well and discussed many things with him over a number of years.
He continued," At best we'll get the 'intent to steal' withdrawn and the trespass charge diverted, and the worst would be a good behaviour bond."
I do my best to have faith in all things, I just hope there's no unexpected twist in this tale before we get this monkey off Gord's back.

I have been waiting for the last flurry of orders to come through before getting on my bike and picking. Yesterday I had a huge day picking holly, spruce, camellia and beech. This was hard on the heels of the weekend extracting honey, another 90kgs in the tank. The messmate has started flowering. All the stickies are back on the bees and I anticipate I'll be extracting again a week or so after Christmas.
Elvie rang just now so I have Foxy's order. She leaves it till the last minute so she can be more accurate. I can understand that, nobody wants to overorder and wind up with stuff not sold. But it makes it hard for me because then I have to go like hell.

Sim Sim Sal A Bim

The other day when I picked up the mail at the post office there was a notice in the p.o.box telling me there was a parcel to be picked up at the desk. There's always a few moments of expectation and curiosity before you find out who it's for and what it is. This time it was a parcel for Gordon which I later found out was a DVD he'd purchased on ebay.
As Glenda handed it to me it to me and I saw Gordon's name I asked her could she wave her magic wand and turn it into a carton of red wine addressed to me. She laughed and said "Sim Sim Sal A Bim, done."
On my morning walks I call in at the post office/ newsagency and say hello to whoever is doing the early shift, which Glenda does three days a week. I asked her what was that she said the other day when she gave me the parcel because it rang a big bell for me somewhere in the memory bank. She said there was a magician on the Tarax show or The Happy Hammond show on TV when she was a kid, Bernard The Magician, who used to say it as he did a magic trick. I remembered it then, and for some reason, like two old fools suddenly realizing that the idiotic antics of after school TV in the early days of the then new medium probably screwed up a whole generation of Australians, we both cracked up laughing. I couldn't stop. It all flooded back, especially the less than subtle marketing of Zig and Zag and Happy Hammond getting kids to stuff themselves with softdrink and Peter's icecream, 'the health food of a nation'. We should sue.
Well yesterday, after a phone call from the hospital, as I put down the phone, I had to say out loud, "SIM SIM SAL A BIM".
Let me give you the whole story. I recovered from the outburst of pent up emotion that overcame me while listening to the old songs yesterday and got about my work. I was not totally enamoured with the world, possibly because of the bill I got in the mail for $350 from the psychologist whom I'd gone with Gordon to see to get a letter of support for his court case. I offered to pay him cash on the day but he said not to worry about it, and Gord and I took it that he wasn't going to charge under the circumstances.
While picking some green pitto I could hear bees buzzing in a nearby native prostranthra, or Victorian christmas bush. They were working it hard, as they were the flowering cotoneasters I'd noticed earlier. I had a quick look into each hive and saw they were heavy with honey. Another extracting weekend ahead. That will cover the psychologist. I was going to get a billy of honey and a couple of bottles of wine to him before Christmas. At least I won't have that worry now. Easier to send a cheque, and he can pay his tax on it.
On my way to the farm I wondered when the social worker would ring. After unloading I asked Elvie had the hospital rang and she said they had and that Lyle had been assessed as in need of high care but that they'd like him to come home if she thought she could manage him. Elvie was adamant that she couldn't, so they agreed it would be necessary then to find nursing home accomodation for him. Selling the farm was not practical as there were four owners and too many people relied on it for their livelihood. We felt relieved, not only because Lyle would have the round the clock care which he needs, but because it looked like we were right all along and we had worked through a difficult situation. Elvie and I made tentative plans to follow up with nursing home research over the next two days and to visit Lyle and console him with the bare reality.
I picked some rowan berries for the wholesaler then went inside to work out the wages cash check while I waited for the agent to come to see us about a valuation for the farm, postponed from the other day. We are going ahead with the valuation, it can't hurt to have knowledge of such things as I may have to borrow money soon, for Lyle's care, or for water tanks. The phone rang. It was a doctor from the hospital. They had done a CT scan on Lyle as he was showing short term memory loss and they'd found bleeding in his brain. It looked like it had happened a few weeks ago and maybe he'd had a fall and knocked his head, which caused it. They were taking him to Monash hospital where they had a brain surgeon and he would be operated on tomorrow to remove the blood. It could well be that his mobility would be much improved and this area of the brain is also directly involved with incontinence.
SIM SAL A BIM. Halleleuyah!. Knock me down with a feather and stone the bloody crows! All that time they were trying to send him home or have him agree to sell his assets, he'd actually had a stroke that was the reason for his rapid deterioration and our inability to cope.
It's a strange feeling when you know you were right all along to have others discover the same thing, and we'll be happy to have Lyle back at the farm if his mobility and balance are imprroved by a successful operation. Touch wood! We'll know in a few weeks.
The agent didn't turn up again. He said he'd had a car accident, but he'd sealed three sales this week to Perth people cashing in on the boom over there, selling up and moving to Melbourne with a big profit. First it was Sydney, he said, now Perth.

In The Depths of The Temple

Lib's been busy organizing a few Christmas presents for her family and friends and asked me yesterday evening, "Where was the CD that has 'The Pearl Fishers' on it." She wants Gord to copy it so she can give it to Johnny Harkins. I couldn't find it, not realizing it was on one CD of a pair titled 'Greatest Voices of The Century', volumes 1+2.
I located it this morning after my walk, which was was cool and peaceful, the rising morning sun like a big orange ball shining through the smoke of the bushfires. In Quinn Rd. Sandy was on her deck having a smoke after nightshift and told me the house next door to them didn't sell at the auction the previous Saturday. No surprise, the day was very hot and the air was thick with bushfire smoke that smarted eyes and tightened nose and chest. The news on my radio said there were now 409,000 hectares burnt, and John Howard was to visit Whitfield today to show his support to the communities and the firefighters.
What Lib was referring to as 'The Pearl Fishers' is a song titled 'In The Depths of The Temple', a duet for a tenor and a baritone. It is, I think, from a Bizet opera called 'The Pearl Fishers', which her parents used to play on a vinyl record when she was a kid. It's a song straight from heaven with the two voices pitched perfectly and complimenting each other with exquisite emotion, moving and inspiring to hear, even if you don't know what the song is about.
I came across this CD set in the 1990's. The singers of the song I mention were Jussi Bjorling and Robert Merrill whom I assume are dead, as would be all the others including names such as Nelson Eddy, Richard Tauber, Joseph Schmidt, Jan Peerce, Peter Dawson, Enrico Caruso, Beniamino Gigli, Lily Pons, Anni Frind, Helen Traubel, Jeanette McDonald, and many others. I taped it for my friend Ida, (she died last week) who had a tape player but could not progress to CD's. She loved it, the old names and songs taking her back to her youth when those singers were like today's pop stars.
I played the CD through. It cut me wide open, my emotions exposed like a ripe avocado waiting to be scooped. When it got to Richard Crooks 'The Holy City', I cried, sitting alone. This was the song I last heard Lyle sing publicly. He sang at Carols by Candelight at Emerald for many years and one year he wanted Lib and I and the boys to go. It would have been the late 1980'sas Robbie was a baby. He was brilliant. It was the last time he sang at the Carols. The next year the organizers explained to him they wanted a younger tenor. He was miffed, but accepted it. Peter Chapple, an emerging professional singer got the gig. He became well known to me as he sang every year at our annual family picnic days at Nobelius Park. Sadly he died of a heart attack a few years ago, aged 48. I have a few CDs of his on which he sings many of the same songs the old timers did, including 'In The Depths of The Temple', as well as more contemporary stuff such as 'The Impossible Dream' and 'Some Enchanted Evening'.

This was the emotional spill I was always going to have. By the time I replayed Paul Robeson's 'Old Man River' I was OK. All those singers are dead and gone, Lyle's in his last days/weeks/months. But the songs live forever and the river rolls on. There's so much smoke outside now, it's eerie. So many people through the east and northeast of Victoria have the fate of their property hinging on the weather and the direction of the wind.

Ida's Funeral

My friend Ida Pullar, younger sister of George Atchison whose 90th birthday we attended last month, died a week ago today on 5 Dec., 11 years and 2 days after her husband Allan. For the last two years she has been in an aged care facility in Sale, where her funeral is today at 2.00pm. I won't be able to get to the funeral, it's too far away and I have much to do.
There's a Christmas lunch today at Rose cottage restaurant in Monbulk for the Committee of the Emerald Museum and Nobelius Park but I've told them I'm a non starter. Better that I slow down and not try to do too much. But I do hope to call on Fay Day and have a cuppa with her. She leaves on Thursday to spend Christmas with her daughter and family and will be away for a month.
A week from today is Gord's court case at Dandenong. All the letters and references have been given to the solicitor and this week I have to contact him to make the final arrangements or find out if he can negotiate with the police prosecutor to have the intent to steal charge withdrawn. Gord is beside himself with nervous anxiety and talks about it constantly.
Robbie got a VCE enter score of 87.4 which will allow him to choose what course he does from those that he applied for. PHEW! Lib's back but Rob is still at Lakes Entrance enjoying some well earned rest.
The agent who is going to get a valuation on the farm for us didn't turn up yesterday.

In The Morning Calm

The sound of light rain, like soft massaging fingers, soothed my mind at dawn this morning. After a weekend of temperatures in the mid and high 30C's the cool change was welcome, although the rain is of no significance for the garden, not even measuring in the gauge. Mr. Whipbird is cracking outside but Mrs. does not reply. she seems to have moved on, as have the young. 'Mr.' is heard but not seen again, resuming his invisibility. Just as I wrote that he cracked and she replied, but from a good distance away. Anyway, I think the babies have moved on, I haven't seen them for a week. Through the bathroom window I could hear a bronzewing 'ooming'. A familiar sound now that I hear all over the place. I'm tuned into it like a radio frequency.
While still in bed I decided to skip my morning walk and write this blog post instead. Normally the walk is non negotiable, a must do, everything else is secondary. But I want to write today. When I'm anxious or worried I can't write. Or read. I sit or lie staring at the pages of a book or paper but my mind is with my troubles, so I don't get past the first page. Lib and Rob went to Lakes Entrance on Friday morning for a long weekend so despite having a computer and a quiet house at my disposal all weekend, I couldn't bring myself to blog.

Things move quickly. In my last post I wrote about picking Lyle up from hospital Friday before last, a hot and uncomfortable day. That night lightning strikes in the Black Range about 20km south of Moyhu, and near Mt. Terrible, and at several other places, started bushfires that have been running wild and joining up during the past 10 days. Many towns have been threatened and 250,000 hectares of bush have been burnt as the northeast and Gippsland braces for a potential inferno. This cool change will help.
By last Friday I was back visiting Lyle in hospital and taking him some things he asked for. He had two bad nights, Tuesday and Wednesday when he'd fallen to the floor while trying to pee in the bottle. He couldn't pee lying down so he got out of bed. Elvie and Meredith then had great difficulty picking him up as he's too weak to raise himself. Elvie strained her back as they lifted him on the Tuesday night and neither of the ladies could get to sleep as every two hours Lyle wanted to pee. They were almost distraught with tiredness on Wednesday.
On Wednesday evening when I got home I related all this to Lib who understands, having worked with geriatrics for 25 years. She said there was 5 respite beds empty at her work, Salisbury house, and we should get Lyle there for a week or two so Elvie and Meredith can have a rest. She also said that if he gets out of bed and falls over they should not try to lift him but make him comfortable and ring the Ambulance Service, and get them to take him to hospital where he can be assessed as in need of high care, and then he can go to Salisbury house for respite care. This seemed good advice given that Elvie has had one hip replaced and also had a fall herself last September which fractured her kneecap, which is why Meredith moved in to help her with Lyle. If she fell trying to lift him and broke her hip it could be the end of her. I rang the farm and told Meredith what Lib had said.
I rang Salisbury house on Thursday morning to ask about the procedure and was not long off the phone when Meredith rang and said the same thing had happened last night and they did what I'd told them to do, rang for an ambulance. Reluctantly the ambos took Lyle to hospital. They didn't want to, they wanted to put him back in bed, but Meredith persisted. I rang the hospital and spoke to a doctor in the emergency ward. He seemed understanding and told me they could do an assessment in emergency and he could go to Salisbury House directly from there. They would call me later.
So far so good, but not for long. Around lunchtime a lady from the hospital rang me and said that they could not do an assessment for respite care, only for permanent high care residence and that even then some protocol needed to be observed which would take two weeks and that as there was nothing they could do for Lyle he'd have to go back home. I told her that was out of the question as my mother and sister were exhausted and needed a rest. She conceded indignantly that he would then have to be admitted, saying that she would ring Elvie. I gave her a little while then rang the farm only to learn that this lady had told Meredith and Elvie that Lyle was fine to go home. Elvie protested, and told the lady that they were obviously getting nowhere at the moment and she didn't want to waste the lady's time nor her own as she had much to do. They were busy with an order for the herb people. The lady said she would ring back later to arrange a time for Elvie to come down tomorrow to discuss things. She didn't ring back.
That evening Elvie and I decided that the only thing going for us at that point was that Lyle was in hospital and unless we went to get him he'd stay there. I said I'd ring them in the morning and we'd take it from there.
So, last Friday morning I rang the hospital, looking for the social worker we'd had on the phone the day before. I learned that he'd been admitted to a specialist aged care ward and a social worker called Prue had taken over his case and she would ring me. She did a little later and she asked many questions about our family situation ie. who owned the farm property?, who was proprietor of the business?, who did we employ?, what was the history of the business?, in fact in a half an hour conversation we covered every aspect of Lyle's condition and medical history and every facet of the 35 year history of the family farm. This lady Prue seemed so helpful and concerned that I took her immediately into my trust, and agreed to meet her at 3.00pm when I brought down things Lyle wanted.
Prue was as delightful in person as she was on the phone and she explained that Lyle would be there for five days and would be examined and assisted by specialist doctors, physios, OT's, psychologists and counsellors and then hopefully the best possible solution will be clear, given our unusual circumstances.
Gordon and I went in with Lyle's things to bed 6 where he was asleep. We woke him up and discussed his problems, including the difficulty getting his dick into the bottle at night. He had worked out the best solution, in his view, to our predicament. We will sell the farm and he and Elvie will go into a place where it would be easier for her look after him, and our worries will be over. I made the point to him that the rest of us loved our work just as he once did, before he lost his physical capability, and that I didn't think selling the farm was the answer, as then we would all have lost what we loved. I disagreed with the price Lyle said we'd get for the farm. Who wants to buy six acres of garden in the middle of the worst drought for 100 years. For the first time it hit me that Lyle's ill health might actually bring about the finish of the farm and my current livelihood. Lyle asked me to have the property valued. I'm meeting an agent there this afternoon for that purpose.

Last weekend's honey (Dec2,3) haul turned out to be more than 50 kgs. The bees have been flying hard and 'hanging out' on the hot days. Robbie gets his VCE results today. There's an internet cafe in Lakes Entrance, I hope he emails me. I rang he and Lib on his mobile last night. They were cooking a BBQ. I told Lib to make sure she doesn't fall down the stairs. She didn't think it was funny. Believe me, I wasn't trying to be.

The Honey Flow Slows

Last Friday was a hot day. I checked the beehives in preparation for a weekend of honey extracting and handling. A cool change was forecast for the Saturday so I thought I'd get an idea of how much honey there would be and get a few boxes off in case the bees were too cranky if the weather was bad.
I was a little disappointed. The heavy flow of the previous week had slowed and there was much less to take than I'd anticipated. In fact I only took honey from the two strong hives that had had no interruption to their brood rearing, and left plenty of unsealed honey on them and the others.
A message had come that the two brushcutters I'd ordered from Mt Evelyn Mowers, the Tanaka agent, had arrived, so I quickly put the boxes of honey in the shed and left for the farm, taking Gordon with me as he wanted to do a bit of mowing. In my haste I left behind Foxy's flax so when I got there I rang Robbie and asked could he bring it using Gordon's car, which was OK with the G man. This turned out to be a stroke of luck, as the hospital rang asking us to pick Lyle up as he was able to come home. He'd been rushed to Dandenong Hospital the previous day by ambulance not being able to get enough air, but he'd come good. He can't get up into my van and Roger had Meredith's car. **
So after I'd picked up the new whippers from Mt. Evelyn I drove Gordon's car down to Dandy hospital to pick up Lyle. The boys came with me. It was peak hour, bumper to bumper traffic, and Gordon's air conditioning doesn't work in his 17 year old car. The engine was overheating in the stop start traffic and an exhaust manifold gasket had blown making it sound like a Mac truck. Would you believe I got stuck in the lift at the hospital? I had to ring the alarm and they had to free me. It didn't take long but it was that sort of day.
We arrived back at the farm with Lyle at about 6.30. It's difficult getting him in and out of cars, his balance and mobility have deteriorated rapidly. The boys went home in Gord's car and I went down the back to water a few things that had been recently planted. It was still hot at 7.oopm. I went inside to get a stubbie of Cascade premium light from the fridge to drink on the way home. I wished I hadn't. Mum was cleaning the floor. Lyle had an bowell accident not long after we'd got him inside and it had gone straight down through his short pyjamas leg onto the floor.
Later that evening I was in the bathtub unwinding when Lib came up saying that was Raelene on the phone and that we were meeting her and John at Emerald at 7.00am to go to the Red Hill market. Fat chance, I thought.
The cool change came in the night with no measurable rain. In the morning it was cold. Lib and Rob left for the market and I stayed to do my honey thing. With the hot weather of the day before and the other drama I hadn't turned the heater on to keep the shed warm through the night. It's amazing the difference it makes to the pleasantness of the work. Cold, dense honey is awful to work with. There was another 40 kg or so in the tank at the end of the day.

** His daughter had his car. A motor bike rider had jumped off his bike to avoid, or because of, an accident with a different car and smashed her back window and dented her roof. He made her an offer for her old bomb rather than have her go to his insurance co. and she accepted and left her car behind for the bikie to have towed away. I kid you not.

Lyle's birthday

Yesterday, Lyle's birthday, was the first day of his 82nd summer. I'm sure it would not rate highly with him, despite coming home from hospital. He's dying a slow, miserable death and he knows it. He's lost his optimism and the whole situation is excrutiatingly sad. More later.